Ugh

Sometimes dieting is not about what you put in your body, sometimes it is what you think.  I am trying to have a positive view. I am trying.  Some of the things that I have used before to help with stress are not there.  Sometimes when other people are dieting around you they are having some of the same issues too.  I am frustrated there is no doubt about that.  I am tired, I am not saying that I want to be chipper and bubbly or that person that always says, "Good Morning." I am just saying I want to be happy.  I know I am pushing myself to do a lot of things right now.  I know most people change one thing in their life at a time.  I changed jobs about a year ago (working full time), I go to school full time, I am still a mom of 1 and part time helper with 2 others, and I try to be a good wife.

I am not defending the arguement that started for some unknown reason. But I am asking for a break, and maybe people that are close to me should be the one that help me.  I am sorry that I am going through emotional changes.  I would love to say I was wrong for complaining about an unexpected but a preventable expense, but I don't think that I was wrong. 

I started this blog to write about a diet and I have found that it is more than a diet, this is my life.  I am still 200 + lbs according to the center's scales.  I would like to see the lower 190's by the end of this week but well not eating food is not neccessarily a good thing for me, I am hoping that I will see a 3.5 lb weight loss this week.